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you know how when you stop looking for something and it comes along on its own.  well i figured out why they dont say anything after that.

Heres my story

So im not going to start at "well i came out my senior.......". F**k that (im not to sure if your able to write curse words, but that should do).  it really started in may when i moved back to dallas and into my mothers house.  i promised myself that i would never smoke and i would stop hooking up, well that didn't happen.  i did though in my pursuit to find someone that i could care for as much as i did for (him).

R:  i met this one actually before i moved back to dallas, we talked the nite i got home, and the next, and decided to meet.  after that not that much really happened.  the big things were, i couldn't trust him much, he was to pretty to trust.  i thought i liked him alot, and i did.  i just wanted more affection than he gave me, he was a rock.

RG:  i know R, or RG doesnt make sense, but i feel when i write, the only people that read this and know the story already should know, identities are something i feel should stay hidden.  anyways rg, my attraction to him reminded me of my attraction to (him).  he was small, looks young (of age though) and was awesome, he was someone i really would have liked to get to know. well the first nite we met, we really did get to know each other, very well indeed.  i have to say though, we never got off (meaning no one shot anything).  It was a make out that went way to far, but was it hott.  well i just found out that a new guy is in his eye, and he's happy, to bad for me.  or was it just to late.

J:  now this boy has a story.  i first heard about J from 'a boy' that i have to say, im glad i didnt really get to know him.  the only thing to say about 'that boy' was that everything he told me was no where near the exact truth.  but J found that out much later than i did.  'this boy' had basically latched to his life to make a relationship happen, but J didnt have it.  something happened to 'that boy' and heard he moved far far away.  well he only moved from oak cliff to north dallas, when i found that out i questioned him about his family and the elaborate story he gave me and that was the last straw for him.  he reminded me 'if u ever question me, the friendship is over', well i did and he stopped talking to me.  OK, so that boy is not the story i wanted to tell, but it leads up to J.  J is a sweet, smart guy, with boundless skills, and an understated persona about him that is hidden away when around tina.  i met him while in the heart of being what he loved best, to twurl.  it really didnt scare me like it did when (him) did the line of coc in front of my face.  he just looked way to sweet to have that addiction.  but he did.  there was something about him that made me do almost everything possible to let him know i cared that he was around and that i wanted him to be around me.  one thing you should do fairly quickly, is let them know thats why your doing what your doing, to let them know you care a whole hell of alot about them.  but in my opinion, i think tina got a hold, and i dont know from experience, but i am a drug user.  when ur drugs around, its hard to say no.  one thing im going to squeeze in is what would u make of this sentence if someone sent it to you 'honestly tho, youre so the kind of guy i could see myself dating'?

so what am i looking for now??

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So I think its about time to talk about something that I haven't written about in a long time, Bois.  So if you already don't know, or haven't figured it out, I met someone.  His name is Cory.  He is one of the most sweetest, the most caring, the most loving, and the cutest boi I have gotten to know.  It has only been two months, but it feels like days.  Now you might be thinking "Trey, it's only been two months, don't you think you'll repeat your past?''.  The is a very good question.  The answer is, I have no clue.  But I do know, in the past with my very few bf's, I haven't hung out with them for two months str8.  By this time in a relationship of mine, I'd have already started looking and talking to new boi's that I would have crushes on.  But the thing that is different now is, I look at another guy and I either think "Wow he's cute, but who care's" or "Humm, I wonder if he'd have a threesome with us".  But honestly, I'd rather sleep with Cory than anyone else.  I feel so safe at night when we spend the night together.  Oh yea, something I told Cory was during the day when I'm with him, I feel like I'm hanging out with one of my best friends, but at night I'm with my bf.  He makes me smile everytime I see his sn online, or his name on my caller id.  I'm a horrible person when it comes to relationship's, but something about him makes me want to try as hard as I can to keep him, and sometimes I feel (and he will most likely agree) I try too hard.  But thats only because I love him so much, and yes I said Love.  I do, I love him, ok ok, yes we've only been together for two months, but let me tell you this.  I have never, in my life, told another person, other than family (and other than the girl I dated in high school, which I did mean when I said it to her, and I still do love her to death) that I loved them.  Story:  I dated this guy John for about three months,  I never said I love you to him.  I know when to say it and when not to say it,   Yes, I'm young and I don't know the true meaning of love, but the meaning that I know is when you are with that person and you feel nothing could go wrong when your around him, and or when you are with that person and everyone else just disappears, that is love. 

Honestly I could go on forever if I needed to, but I think that is enough for now.  So in closing, after two years of nothing, I found everything. Nite.

So this weekend was great.  Doug, Cory and I left Waco on Friday to go to Austin and then Houston for the Tori Amos Concert.  Cory and I got to see her in Austin cause Doug, the sweetest boy, bought tickets for us to see her.  She's a bit different, but I really liked her performance.  So after the concert in Austin we stop and ate, met up with a friend of doug's, which his name has escaped my mind at the time, who was completely iced out, he was weird.  Anyways, Doug and him hung out together while Cory and I went to Swifty's (the guy that we stayed with) house.  After his roommate finally got home, it was a bit late to go out, so we watched a movie and crashed.

The next day we left for Houston about 3, and got there about 6.  You know something, people in Houston SUCK.  They are horrible drivers, and the lines the separate the road into lanes were road titty's, which drove me nuts everytime I switched lanes.  But ne wayz, we dropped Doug off at the concert place and had about 4 hours to kill.   So we basically drove around town, til Cory realized that we could go see his aunt and his cousins.  So we drove to Lake Jackson (which doesn't even have a lake, but neither does lacy lakeview, I don't think) which is about 45 mins from Houston.  I adore his aunt and his cousin Melissa, She was a sweetheart, and his to other cousins, Arron and Adam were cool too.  So we had dinner with them, then had to bolt back to Houston to get Doug.  After that we drove around to look for SoBe (South Beach). 

The club was ok.  But I still don't think it was worth the hour we had to stand in line outside to just get in.   Once we got in we looked around and realized that the dance floor was PACKED.  So we didn't dance to much.  But there was this part of the night where this loud annoying hissing sound started, it was loud and so hard to hear anything.  That's when this guy Carlos, who we met in line grabbed Doug's hand and lead us out in the middle of the dance floor.  Right as soon as we stopped moving, all this cold white fog, or smoke filled the whole dance floor.  All that you could see was white, nothing but white.  IT WAS AWESOME.  Well that happened twice, I was groped by this nasty drunk mexican that pissed me the fuck off.  We lefted about 3:30am and started heading back to Austin since we had no place to stay in Houston.  We got back to Austin about 6am.

Back in Austin we really didn't do anything except go to the lake for Splash, which we got lost for about 2 hrs and got there at 8 something when the park closes at 9.  N e wayz,  walked around there, then left to go back to swifty's to get drunk.

Got up about 11, and didn't get home to 6pm.  All I have to say is, TRAFFIC SUCKS.............so that was my weekend,  more than likely no one will read this, but who cares.  Luv, c ya